Thursday, March 20, 2008

Missing Grandpa

I'm a very lucky woman. I knew not only my grandparents, of which I had four+1 (Pa remarried after Granny died, so Bill is the +1) but I also knew 4 of my great-grandparents, and TWO great-great-grandmothers. I have friends who never even got to meet their grandparents. How lucky am I? Even knowing I'm lucky doesn't change the fact that I'm sad for myself, for my kids, for my mother, and especially for my grandmother, his wife of 61 years, that my beloved Grandpa is in Heaven now.
  • I'll never get to see that twinkle in his eye as he tries, and always gives himself away, cheating at cards.
  • I'll never hear him make that awesome train whistle sound with his hands.
  • We'll never get to play Wii Bowling with him again.
  • I'll never get to argue with him over who gets to pick up the tab for lunch.
  • I'll never get to be on another road trip with him, have him slam on the brakes and honk the horn and ask us if we saw that elephant.
  • I'll never have him walk me to my car as I'm leaving their house and spend 15 minutes asking me how many miles I have on it, am I sure I like driving a foreign car, and any other question he could think of to stall my departure.
  • He'll never write any more poems for us or draw any more Mickey Mouses.

He is in a better place, and playing with Old Zackie Boy, and knowing that helps. I'm sad today because I found a song by the piano that I meant to learn to play for him and never did.

So I leave you today with a poem he wrote. This one is untitled, but he wrote it for my Grandma.

All she thought she really wanted
Was just a little kiss
As they sat so close together
Her thoughts he couldn’t miss
But that was forty years ago
Before grandkids and such
How can such a little thing
Turn out to be so much

2 comments:

LC Photography said...

Wow.....I'm sure you did not have a dry eye remembering and writing such beautiful memories of your dear grandpa. That was quite touching and don't be sad, you were very fortunate to have had those wonderful times together. You've celebrated life together. I'm sure he can hear you play that piano and the song that was meant for him and it'll bring a smile to his face everytime......

Anonymous said...

Kim, I tried to sena an answer to this blog but couldn,t get it to go. Will try again. I love the way you have with word.I like to think you got that from Grandpa! You,r words were very meaningful and meant so much to me.I know Grandpa would have been sooo proud of you.
Love you lotz
Grandma